Let It Be

All I truly know is that I love my people, but I also love doing anything to make myself and others happy. I am willing to pay the price for it and I gotta accept the consequences.

I needed a way to fly a little higher, I went up to the clouds because the view was a little nicer.

I just let it be the way it is. Quick moments. Long lasting memories.

I Tried to Find You

Well, I got to say I did my part. 

I tried hard to find you and I almost got lost, good thing I found cool things to do during the journey of trying to get to you. 

Cars, trains, cities, and smells... Rain on my face and the wind blowing my hair.

Luck is action's best friend.

A Letter for You

Dear: Xxxx

I hope you are doing great, I bet you are making your dreams come true wherever you are right now. I always believed in you and it makes me happy to hear that you are succeeding in life.

Life is being great over here, I like going to school. I really love learning, I have found many challenging things that have put my mind where it should be. I have had hard days and some disappointments every now and then, but in despite of how bad I have felt, I have never got discouraged. That means a lot to me because it is hard to keep going on these days. I feel I'm taking life more serious than before.

I used to feel that somehow life would work out just fine by just working and going to school... Until I turned 22. I used to believe I would be married by that time and that I would have to work a new life for the man I would love and for me. Okay so I put my feet back on the ground and thought that I might be single for a long time and that I would probably start having children until I'm 30 or later. Yeah, that could happen to me, I would not discard that probability. Of course, there is nothing wrong with it, but it is just that I had to think more in the life I personally want to have for myself in the meantime.

Wow! Really? Is this real life? Now I will take my dad's counsels about money more seriously. Once I start my professional career out there, I am seriously thinking about saving a big part of my salary and invest.

What about going back to El Salvador for living? You know what, I really think about it and I can see myself living there because I'd love to be closer to my parents. They are so great, they make me very happy, they are in their 60's and I would so love to take care of them and be there when they get sick or need something. I know they miss me a lot and that kinda breaks my heart. I have been reading many articles about families and really, I should take advantage of my time with them on this earth. I feel I didn't get to spend as much time with them before because I was busy with school, sports, and music and they were working. Now they are retired and I would be just working when I finish school.

People tell me about the money I could make here and the money I could make down there, but you know what, spending more hours at work or making more money do not compensate the happiness we can receive from precious times with our family. I have come to strongly believe in that from what I have seen here so far.

I would love to hear more about you, keep staying busy and don't ever forget me :)

Sincerely,

Claudia R.

It's Hard To Say

It looks like we get to the point where we finally figure it out, but it takes a long, long time.
I really wish some people would've got it all figured out a long time ago; otherwise, maybe I wouldn't have turned and walked away.


I don't believe in leaving doors open "just in case" someone wants to go back. It is hard to say I kept some hope with me about someone getting back with me. I knew the best was not to be with this person. It is true, time cures. The best part is that we can choose how long time we want to suffer. Lesson learned. The faster we realize that each relationship, good or bad, is a gift and an opportunity to learn from ourselves, the faster we will be able to cure and start loving and living again.

It is hard to say what is in some people that we always want to be with them. I feel I have learned about the feeling of knowing for sure when I really like someone; to the point that I don't care about many things. I don't care about the things this person doesn't have. I don't care about many circumstances. I don't feel like trying to fix this person.

They say love is blind but I have never been that blind, I promise I always have had my feet on the ground; however, when I have been with someone I really like, I have not cared about anything else, I could have spent every single day with this person and everything else probably would have not mattered.

Leaving Before Being Left

The letter I wrote, I found it today after a long time... I have let go now.

Yyyy,

I really appreciate you taking the time to write a letter for me but I would've preferred not receiving anything like that from you because it wasn't what I would've expected to read after the last time we talked. I have been thinking a lot about you too. I really miss you. Some days I felt like just going to your house and tell you how much I miss you but that was not going to fix anything so I decided not to...

I think you should know that the first days without you have been hard. The mornings have been the hardest because I still feel that emptiness inside me. I'm okay during the day since work and other things keep me distracted and busy but it is also hard when I go to bed because I think about you and I miss you. It really is being hard I must say because I was so used to have you by my side. I am very sure I'll get over it sooner than later, do not worry about me. I feel good and I think I'm happy, I just miss talking to you and knowing that I also lost a friend makes me feel sad. I understand this is natural and it will go away.

Just like you, I also enjoyed all the moments we spent together. The day we went to the canyon at midnight was also my favorite. I remember the day we said that we didn't care about anything else when we were together because we felt so happy with each other, it made me feel super happy to know you felt the same way I did.

I wish you all the best, I will be very happy to hear about you succeeding in life. 

Claudia

“A wise girl kisses but doesn't love, listens but doesn't believe, and leaves before she is left.” - Marilyn Monroe

Letting go is also a process!

Eternally Grateful

I'm very grateful for my parents. I feel very happy to talk to them, they are really true friends. They give me courage to face life. They have taken care of me and done a lot of sacrifices to raise me.

Graduation

God loved me so much that He gave me the parents I have, and for that I am eternally grateful. They are not perfect people but they are perfect for me no matter what.            I miss them so much, sometimes I wish I could just leave and eat from my mom's food or talk with my dad about life while it's raining. There are so many things I miss about my family but this is part of life. Someday I was gonna have to leave home for marriage or any other reason. It's part of life.




Just how it happened in heaven... I yearn to go back home. No place like home.

Learning to Let Go "I Remember The Day I Met You"

I feel like I have finally accepted the fact of letting go each and everyone who once was part of my life but did not come to stay in it. I always have had the hope that maybe, eventually or later down the road a miracle to have you back in my life could be possible and that we could enjoy the moment just like the old days. Yes, I'm talking about that impulse of holding on to how I wanted things to be or how I want them now.

Assuredly, now I have come to understand and overall accept that I have to let go whatever is not serving me, whatever I no longer need (or maybe I do but it cannot be), whatever keeps me from accepting new realities and do not dwell in possibilities of having what once were my dreams of the future.

And this is why is hard to let go: Letting go is about being okay with the fact of what once was important, now it's all gone... I do feel okay with it but not consciously. I miss the commodity of the things I experienced, which now are in the past and it's hard to imagine something or someone better than that and because the future is uncertain, it's really hard to tell how things are going to be, specially who or what I will probably need. The way I see it: I am not used to let go because I feel like holding on to someone or something can eventually benefit me in the future.

Definitely, I should never give up, and that's one of the things that keeps me being persistent with my hopes but now with these kind of things I should remove all hope and possibility because that is what "letting go" means, "things will not change."
                                                                                                                                                                         

I'll look at it as if the people and things that were in my life once, have fulfilled their purpose and will never get back together with me.

And that's it. I no longer want to remember the day I met you, I don't want to remember how I felt, what I did, what you told me, what I should've done nor "what could happen if..."

I'm even willing to not recall or go back to those chapters of my life. I miss them but there's a lot more coming soon! 

Think positively and cheerfully!

Life as I Know it

Choosing a different path towards your aspirations means that you have to abandon other paths. I have left a lot of things behind, not that they were not important because they were as important as my life but… Now as the time has gone by I have realized that being what you want to be and becoming what you are capable to do is the sole purpose of your potential as human being. I define the path of humans as a path towards themselves; in other words, a path towards discovering themselves.

Trees from Central Park, NY

The more you live, the more exciting life gets. It never made sense to me the fact that we are born crying, live complaining and die disappointed. Life is not how it is, life is how you decide to make it up. Life is not a tragedy when you live by your feelings, give it some sense by thinking in how you won’t die disappointed. 

If I Fell

This is how I’ve always felt...

If I fell in love with you would you promise to be true and help me understand cuz I’ve been in love before and I’ve found that love was more than just holding hands…

I must be sure from the very start that you would love me more than [him]… If I love you too don’t hurt my heart like [him] cuz I couldn’t stand the pain and I would be sad if our new love was in vain… So I hope you see that I would love to love you.

Memories

It's very very sweet when moments spent in the past come to your mind... Moments that made you feel invincible and happy...

Someone once said, "Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment."

They just stay in the past, you just keep the sweet memories and you feel grateful because at least they happened but if they would happen right now in this very moment it wouldn't probably be the same...

"The past is behind, learn from it. The future is ahead, prepare for it. The present is here, live it."

What Happened There in Your Heart?

TO: YOUR HEART

Dearest Heart:

Heart, be careful when falling in love. You have lost many lovers before and now you just lost one more. 

You give everything from you and you feel that you don't get the same in return.You thought you had been healed by this lover but this lover left you broken again. Learn from the experience, you know what to do. If you fall in love again, this better be your last time because we don't want to see you crying again. Ask this lover to not come back again because this lover still hurts inside...

And This Never Happened to Me Before!

Some things in life happen just because. I was thinking about it and in how those things amaze me when I stop and stare at them. It's time!

"I'm very sure this never happened to me before... I met you and now I'm sure this never happened before... Now I see this is the way it's supposed to be, I met you and now I see this is the way it should be for lovers..."
- Paul McCartney

Promise it!

Promises are sometimes unfaithful or obvious lies...

Someone once said that "a real boyfriend keeps his promises even if he makes hurtful decisions."

The more a person promises the more this person disappoints... Napoleon Bonaparte said that the best way to keep one's word is not to give it...

How?

How a song can get so stuck in my head?  

It’s because I can identify myself in some verses or because I wish things in the adventures of my life were like the ones described in a song.

Maná: It’s a Pop/Rock Mexican band. It’s the best band in the whole Latin America, they appeared a long time ago and their 90’s old songs keep blasting all over the world. Their newest songs keep getting better and better! Everyone loves them! I have known people that love this band not even knowing Spanish. They are so legit! I can say that they are and will be like The Beatles, which means that all their songs are liked by everyone. My favorite songs in Spanish come from this band. I love the things they talk about and the way they think about romantic love.

Lately I’ve been wanting to sing out loud the following verses.

Quedé ahogado entre tu miel… Quedé tan solo que he perdido la razón…

¿¿¿COMO DIABLOS TE ME METISTE!!!!????? ME ESTA ESTALLANDO EL CORAZON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

¿COMO DIABLOS TE ME PERDISTE? AY AY AY AAAAY!

Estoy perdido en las venas de esta ciudad extrañandote…

¿¿¿COMO DIABLOS TE ME METISTE!!!!????? ME ESTA ESTALLANDO EL CORAZON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

¿COMO DIABLOS TE ME PERDISTE? AY AY AY AAAAY!

SI QUIERO VIVIR TENDRE QUE OLVIDAR Y VOY A BORRAR TU AMOR.

They talk about how lonely you feel after not having with you someone you were very used to have by your side very often and that you still cannot get this someone out of your heart/head. This is natural; everyone has to experience things like this over and over again. They go completely away sooner or later. You just keep a sweet memory after all. 

I love the intro with the drums  ♥!

Capture the Moment… Don’t Let it Go!

Live up the best moments in your life!

Seriously!

You can’t complain. You have it all. Family, friends and good/fun times!

That’s everything!

You Never Know

"From a tiny spark can come a large fire." Robert D. Hales

A Story Between My Fingers

Inspired by Gianluca Grignani

 

I think that our moments together have not been for nothing

You go away from me and what? I won’t fight because of this, you already know it

But at least stay with me more time

I don’t think we could find something better than our romance.

What are you going to do? Just find an excuse and go away

Don’t worry about me, I will write you a couple of songs just to try to hide my emotions

I will think a little bit about the words… I will talk about your smile that opened the doors to my paradise

Chosen

 

Those eyes were only looking straight at me, so I feel I’ve been chosen for this.

I’m Here

I’m still here in this world.

I‘m glad that I live in this beautiful world.

Salt Lake City, UT